When it comes to making resolutions for the New Year I'm the kind of person who goes about it in a half-hearted fashion. Even as I write them down I just know deep down that its going to be impossible to keep them, so why bother. So here goes….My New Years Resolutions for 2007 are:
*drum roll*
- Drink more water. Try to get up to drinking at least 1 and a half to 2 litres a day. (made yearly).
- Keep up my running routine, and try to improve upon it. (made yearly as "be more active", or "try to exercise more", so this one has been improved upon to some degree).
- Try harder to stop biting my nails. (Even as I write this I'm chomping away!). (Definitely made yearly!).
- Make an effort to be more patient and therefore to complain less. (Pretty much made yearly).
- Stop getting library fines! (It’s a stupid waste of money that could be put to better use!). (This one's a newbie).
- Get my Learners License (Again!) and actually make an effort to drive as often as possible in order to become as confident as possible so that I can book my Driving Test. Because come on already!
- Try to replace all negative thoughts with positive ones to avoid depression. (Not too sure if this has been an actual resolution in the past, but it has always been an intention in my mind, and I have always told myself that it is something I should try to do more regularly. I've never really succeeded at it though).
- Go for an HIV/AIDS test. (This resolution is a totally new one to me. I've always been terrified of having the test taken, and not for the reason one might expect. It's the needle prick and the taking of blood that freaks me out the most. I'm terrified of needles! That's why I've never gone for the test. It's also why, despite perfectly good intentions, I haven't donated blood (yet). It's something I would like to do, but geez, call me when there's a better way to go about it please! Some time ago my office did a voluntary HIV / AIDS survey, where the blood test results would not be divulged even to the person who had taken part in the survey, and barcodes were used instead of our names to protect our identity. Despite being terrified of the needle, I decided I couldnt be the only one to chicken out, and went ahead with the survey. When it came time to prick my finger I very quietly freaked out, but let the nurse get on with it anyway. Surprisingly it wasnt bad at all, which has led me to believe that I could do it again, but this time to get my results. I've always thought that the HIV / AIDS campaign where there are billboards up, or radio adverts where a person states that they know their status, and then ask, "do you?" is a good one. I think it's important that everyone knows their status.
- Make a provision for health issues, i.e: dentist or doctor, etc. (This is also a newbie, which has come about due to a tooth cracking and actually breaking off recently. Normally I'm very lazy when it comes to my health, prefering to just get over a cold or cough instead of running to the doctor every time and running up massive medical bills. My tooth has made me come to realise that I should probably stop being so lazy / unphased about my health, and get fixed whatever is breaking or has broken instead of constantly putting it off due to being too terrified. Of course this mostly applies to my teeth, since the issues I have with them arent the sort that will just get better, like a cold or cough, etc.).
Take part in a 5km fun run, and see just how far I can manage to run. (This is definitely a newbie since I only started running more seriously in September 2006. The only race, besides the Cape Times Big Walk, that I took part in was the 10km that I did in October, I think it was. Instead of taking part in the running group of the 10km, I opted to join the walking group, since I have no real idea of my capabilities when it comes to running a race. I would like to at least make an attempt to take part in a 5km run just to be able to guage my ability).
Try to work on my listening and communication skills. (This is another yearly one! But it's a very difficult one when Boyfriend starts talking about cars and how they work, and what bike he's now decided to buy (which changes almost weekly), etc. My mind kind of shuts down and I start thinking about other things while doing the obligatory nodding of the head and appropriate "uhuh" and so forth.
Finally, finally, finally finish the "Horse & Lion" pencil drawing I started in either Grade 11 or Matric (2000 or 2001). (This one is a newbie because I am getting sick of seeing it hanging on my bedroom wall with a huge white section that really just needs to be shaded in. You see! With all the good intentions I've had over the years to finish it, it still isn't done!)
While I could probably come up with some more resolutions...in fact, I know I thought of other things but just cant quite remember what they are at this moment...I dont want to overload myself with too many, considering that keeping past resolutions hasn't seemed to work for me so well. (Note how many are yearly ones!).
Due to my pretty pathetic attempts at keeping resolutions, I shall narrow the list down to the things that I think I could probably handle (eh, maybe, not so sure, but we'll see about that). Of course the idea is to manage all 12, but on a realistic scale I somehow dont think it's going to be possible.
My Substantially Narrowed-Down List of Resolutions:
- Running (Im pretty certain I'll be able to keep this one up).
- Drink Water! (With a bit of determination I suppose I could do this one).
- Get Learners License! (Well, this one is a must. I'm pretty certain that this one will be accomplished - infact, I should be booking the test tomorrow!).
- Stop Biting Nails! (Eh! Ya! We'll see about this one).
- No More Library Fines! (Well, I am pathetically lazy when it comes to walking over the bridge to take library books back. I know I can do this one if I just try hard enough. How hard can it be?! But we are talking about me here, so....).
- Finish "Horse & Lion" pencil drawing already! (This just has to be done! No excuses! To prove just how little I actually have to do, please see below picture. Note that the camera flash was reflecting off the shiny pencil. Scanning would solve the problem, but I dont have easy access to one).
My step-father is a very goal orientated person, and while we were having supper at Ocean Basket that Friday when I managed to throw a dart at my foot, we had a discussion about making goals for 2007 as opposed to making resolutions. I think the two are pretty much the same, save for one distinctive difference.
To me personally, goals are more clearly defined than resolutions. Goals tend to have a time-frame in which they should be completed. While you could say that resolutions also have a time-frame, such as the year ahead from when they are made at the beginning of each new year, I tend to see them as having a more general purpose in my life than goals do. To me, resolutions are guidlines that I wish to live my life by one day. Maybe that is the reason I dont often succeed in keeping these resolutions. Maybe I need to label them as goals, and set a (generous at first) time-frame by which time I can assess my progress. Maybe that is just the motivation someone like me needs.
My step-father asked each one of us where we think we will be in the next five years, and what we want to have accomplished by that time. Those are tough questions. It's difficult for me to look forward and speculate on how my life will be, where I'll be living, what I'll be doing with my life / career, etc. I've always struggled with that. I'd much prefer to set goals with a shorter time-frame so that they don't get forgotten, and so that I don't grow bored and lose interest in them. But goals are difficult for me to form. As such I don't really know where I'm heading. It's pretty sad, really. I come to work, do my work, and then go home. I don't feel that my career defines me like it does a lot of people. While I do enjoy my job on some level, I'm not entirely sure that working in a legal environment is what I really want to be doing long-term. For now though, it is okay. It pays my rent and affords me the independance of living in my own place, even if I have to rely on Boyfriend's salary to feed me.
Boyfriend's general response to the five-year-questions are that there's no real point in stating what he would like to have achieved in five years, or where he will be at that time. He says that since there are countless things that can happen during those five years, what is the point in saying or writing down goals for such a long period of time when its quite unlikely that they may be accomplished?
I understand his point of view completely, but I also think it's wise to spend some time thinking about where you are in life and where you are heading in the future. I've been encouraging him to talk about what he wants to do with himself, etc, and what do you know? A list, albeit a short one, began to form. Now he just needs to give them the label of "goal" or "resolution", and there we go! I think he was a little surprised that it wasnt so difficult afterall.
So, armed with this list of resolutions, here's to a Brand New Year for all of us!
And here's hoping that all of us who compiled a list of resolutions will have the strength of character to stick them out at least until the end of the year!
(...err..or this month...)
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